Hey , I'm jz saying...

Well... its been awhile that any post where posted in this blog. So to make it active abit, im jz goin to write some stuff tat have been goin through my mind.

Every time the things that had been expected more, but instead less was return.
Every time the things that was predicted to be a good ending , but instead it ended up grief .

They say that sometimes this happen because your not really trying hard enough or either way your just having bad luck. But how can one really determine luck? or what can one do when they already tried very hard?

Maybe all of this was just a mere thought, or maybe is how i presume that hard thing to do was impossible.

Being empty for a moment, gets thought generated bout how can this be? or why can it be?
There was always anxieties upon the thoughts of mine, thinking bout how my future would be? or what would happen next if i have done the things that i think i should done? The uncertainties had always been wondering around me. I try to be rational to understand the situation, where first i tough i was pretty much understandable based on my situation. Always trying hard not to screw up or always tries to out win the moment, which this had always frighten me to wonder what would the outcome be.

The question running through my mind was the ones i try so hard to understand, to overcome.
Knowing and understanding about life had interest me alot. Question bout life doesn't have a answer while they would be more riddles behind it instead. Life is also about what you really believe in and what you would trust.

Once a wise friend of mine asked, " what is your purpose of living? "

A question that doesn't have an exact answer.
But yet gives you a Manning towards yourself in terms of having the spirit to go-on.

I always wonder what is really the exact reason for my existence whereas i always doesn't seems much of a different either im dead or alive. The only effect here if i were dead, were only cry's of the love ones which is my friends and family and thou the earth or karma wouldn't much affected.
By thinking this way, i have made a huge mistake. My existence i soon discover, i had affected some people whom i think would be important. Some say i change abit bout how their life are, or some say i did nothing, but my principle of living that seems to be naive was form.

If i was not to be kind towards others, who else would be kind?
If there was nobody believe in order and justice, who else would be?

I have saw couple of people change through out my years of living, some have change towards better and some had become worse than expected. I always could understand how the situation or the influences would change one's attitude, but i still couldn't understand why would one change their believes.

There has been a saying i created my self, stating that
" If there is no Chaos, there would be no Peace "

I'm still a kid, aged of 19. By having certain things sacrifice just for a choice that have been make, was really tough. Sometimes avoiding and Letting it go wasn't in the option book, while to choose either one of both of your liking is just what living is.

There i thought i knew and understand, while still I a mere child.
A child that tries to understand the question that have no right or wrong answers.
Right or Wrong are jz things that we presume ourself.


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